This is Red Rock Canyon National Conservation Area, just outside of Las Vegas, Nevada. It’s several hours from home for me, and the perfect distance for a long drive listening to music, when I just need to clear my head and forget the craziness of the world. On offer: a scenic drive, winding roads, great hiking trails, serenity…
There are certain places you go back to, time and again. This is one of those for me. Why? Just because. Sometimes the reasons we do things make sense to anyone and everyone, and sometimes there is simply no sense to be had. Rationalize as we may, reason has nothing to do with it… but we do them anyway.
Instinct? Need? Addiction? Habit? Does it even really matter?
I don’t believe it does. Not everything needs a reason, an explanation, a justification, but the demand for rationalization has been such a constant requirement throughout my life, it’s become part of me.
- Don’t you already have enough on your plate?
- Explain the benefit of this expense to the institution.
- Why did you choose those colors, that font, that placement?
- Is going back to school at this point in your life really a good idea?
- Provide a citation to support your claim.
Plus, I just like to understand the WHY of things.
Because of this, I’ve been accused of “overthinking” – and I probably do. It’s not an inherently bad thing, but it can get in the way of life at times. So, I’ve been learning to stop myself when I start to overdo it. Because sometimes, it really is okay to have ice cream for dinner or drive 600 miles in a weekend for no reason other than wanting to.
The most important lesson I have learned in the last few years is the importance of being present in one’s own life. It’s my story, and I want it to be a good one.